没想过我还能握著你的手
还能和你一起走一起走

你曾说过就算走到路的尽头
你还是坚持陪我陪著我

去找一个开始
就这样也找到了最后
不放手和你到最后

不管别人怎么看我
我只相信爱没错
不要对我怀疑太多
或去猜测我们的以后

不怕再多冷眼看我
我只相信爱没错
不问结果是什么
永远不算什么

… a good writer with the writer’s block.

;p

I haven’t lost anyone forever yet … but
“This might be the end …” I said as a new morning comes.

Soon, I’ll walk this long white line,
I’ll walk as not to lose my footing,
but I have already discarded my future …
“It’s not the same huh?” I laughed

Why? If it’s my own body, why can’t I do whatever I want with it?
Even if you lie to me countless times, the answer for that will never come out …

Even if my presence disappears from the crowd of people,
we won’t be together…
But I can see the bright thin string
painfully binding people together…

As we become human, a sky painted over countless times will be there.
We may be apart, but there is a certain word I want to say to you,
Live Live Live

As I lie down in a wall-less room,
I see up to a small window and open it …

I haven’t lost anyone forever yet … but
I clench unto an unending presentiment of pain within my hands.

Why? If it’s my own body, why can’t I do whatever I want with it?
Even if you lie to me countless times, the answer for that will never come out …

Live Live Live
Live Live Live
Live Live Live
Live Live Live
Live Live Live

Lost in the darkness, hoping for a sign
Instead there is only silence,
Can't you hear my screams...?
Never stop hoping,
Need to know where you are
But one thing is for sure,
You're always in my heart.

I'll find you somewhere
I'll keep on trying until my dying day
I just need to know whatever has happened,
The Truth will free my soul.

Lost in the darkness, try to find your way home
I want to embrace you and never let you go
Almost hope you're in heaven so no one can hurt your soul...
Living in agony 'cause I just do not know
Where you are

I'll find you somewhere
I'll keep on trying until my dying day
I just need to know whatever has happened,
The Truth will free my soul.

Wherever you are, I won't stop searching.
Whatever it takes, I need to know.

I'll find you somewhere
I'll keep on trying until my dying day
I just need to know whatever has happened,
The Truth will free my soul.

… that I was afraid.

I guess I still am.

Life is a paradox of contradiction constantly being replayed time and time again.

… chasing cars around our heads.

… between you and me.

Rusted. Expired.

… sometimes even asking a question is difficult.

On second thoughts, when was it ever easy?

When leaves have fallen
And skies turned to grey.
The night keeps on closing in on the day
A nightingale sings his song of farewell
You better hide from her freezing hell

On cold wings she's coming
You better keep moving
For warmth, you'll be longing
Come on just feel it
Don't you see it?
You better believe.

When she embraces
And your heart turns to stone
She comes at night when you're all alone
And when she whispers
Your blood shall run cold
You better hide before she finds you

Whenever she is raging
She takes all life away
Haven't you seen?
Haven't you seen?
The ruins of our world.

Whenever she is raging
She takes all life away
Haven't you seen?
Haven't you seen?
The ruins of our whole world?

She covers the earth with a breathtaking cold
The sun awakes and melts it away
The world now opens it's eyes and sees
The dawning of a new day

On cold wings she's coming
You better keep moving
For warmth, you'll be longing
Come on just feel it
Don't you see it?
You better believe.

Whenever she is raging
She takes life away
Haven't you seen?
Haven't you seen?
The ruins of our world?

Whenever she is raging
She takes life away
Haven't you seen?
Haven't you seen?
The ruins of our world?

… it has been two crazy weeks @ work so far.

Of babies, hiring programs, quarterly reports, new-joiners, earthquakes, tsunamis, haze.

Definitely a test of endurance.

On a lighter note, I’m “re-starting” my gaming hobby … haha. I just hope I have enough time to learn to play!

In this world you tried
Not leaving me alone behind
There's no other way
I'll pray to the gods let him stay
The memories ease the pain inside,
Now I know why

All of my memories keep you near.
In silent moments,
Imagine you'd be here.
All of my memories keep you near,
Your silent whispers, silent tears

Made me promise I'd try
To find my way back in this life.
I hope there is a way
To give me a sign you're okay.
Reminds me again it's worth it all
So I can go home.

All of my memories keep you near.
In silent moments,
Imagine you'd be here.
All of my memories keep you near,
Your silent whispers, silent tears.

Together in all these memories
I see your smile.
All the memories I hold dear.
Darling, you know I'll love you
Till the end of time.

All of my memories keep you near.
In silent moments,
Imagine you'd be here.
All of my memories keep you near,
Your silent whispers, silent tears.

All of my memories ...

I want you to love me, but I don’t think you will
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared, even if I’m hurt
I can say “I love you” to the person who I love

Do you love me? Or not love me?
For things like that, it’s fine either way
No matter how I wish
There are many unchangeable things in this world, right?
That’s right, and because only the fact of my loving you
Is the truth unchangeable by anyone

I want to overcome the thousands of nights and tell it to you
There is something that I must tell you
I want you to love me, but I don’t think you will
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared
Even if I’m hurt, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
It’s scary to turn my feelings into words
But I can say “I love you” to the person who I love

In this broad world, I can’t express the joy of encountering you with words
So we smile, sing about the vividly passing autumn in do-re-mi
Turn our backs on winter, wait for the sunlight streaming through trees in spring
And become reborn anew, so that we can protect someone

On the path we came from and our destination, when we looked back, I’d always have timid eyes
I want to face you, but I can’t be honest
I, who repeated days of not being able to straightforwardly love my partner
And hated being alone on that day
Tried to love people while unwounded

I’ll overcome the thousands of nights and go meet you now
There is something that I must tell you
I want you to love me, but I don’t think you will
I wander within that repetition
I found one answer; that even if I’m scared
Even if I’m hurt, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
Even if those thoughts aren’t fulfilled, I can say “I love you” to the person who I love
It’s the most wonderful thing in this world

Sparkling angel I believed
You were my savior in my time of need.
Blinded by faith I couldn't hear
All the whispers, the warnings so clear.
I see the angels,
I'll lead them to your door.
There's no escape now,
No mercy no more.
No remorse 'cause I still remember
The smile when you tore me apart.

You took my heart,
Deceived me right from the start.
You showed me dreams,
I wished they'd turn into real.
You broke the promise and made me realize.
It was all just a lie.

Sparkling angel, I couldn't see
Your dark intentions, your feelings for me.
Fallen angel, tell me why?
What is the reason, the thorn in your eye?
I see the angels,
I'll lead them to your door
There's no escape now
No mercy no more
No remorse 'cause I still remember
The smile when you tore me apart

We've been seeing what you wanted and it's fallen right now falling asleep from our vanity may cost us our lives
I hear them getting closer, the hounds are sending chills down my spine
Time is running out now, they're coming down the hills from behind

When we start killing
It's all coming down right now
From the lie that we created, I want to be awaken some how (wanna be awaken right now)

When we start killing
It all will be falling down
From the hell that we're in, all we are has faded away
When we start killing

We've been searching on and on but there's no trace to be found
It's like they all have just vanished but I know they're around
I feel they're getting closer, the hounds are sending chills down my spine
Time is running out now, they're coming down the hills from behind

When we start killing
It's all coming down right now
From the lie that we created, I want to be awaken some how (wanna be awaken right now)

When we start killing
It all will be falling down
From the hell that we're in, all we are has faded away
When we start killing

When we start killing

Too many have fallen, few still stand tall
Is this the end of what we begun
Will we remember what we've done wrong?

When we start killing
It's all coming down right now
From the lie that we created, I want to be awaken some how (wanna be awaken right now)

When we start killing
When we start killing...

… of Angels, Ice Queens and Memories.

To the people who have always supported me,
I've put you in my rhapsody of everyday thoughts.
I hope my feelings of appreciations will reach you.
As always, thank you. No really, thank you.
No matter where you are I'll always be thankful you exist

… it’s more of the procrastination.